hello there, green eyed boy.

                                                     i see you sitting next to me in class.

                                                                                                                   i hear you cracking jokes.

you hear me laughing along.

                                                    our eyes meet and i get nervous.

                                                                                                                    you give me butterflies.

                                                      and i like it.

i

          like

                             you,

                                                         green eyed boy.

this movie held my interest 'til the end, even if the end was dumb. but the rape scene was about 10 freakin' minutes long! and it made me sad. :( my sister's friend saw it in theatres and walked out because of that scene. the movie scared me because it seemed so real, like it could happen anytime. even though i do NOT own a summer house that's amazing and spotless it really scared me. i didn't like the whole microwave ending though. i thought that was stupid. but i give the movie 4 out of 5 stars.

since my last blog. i don't want to go into details. he loves me. i like him for all the wrong reasons. i'm a terrible person who enjoys playing with other people's hearts. i don't want to get close to any guy because the man in my life who matters the most left me alone when i was 6..my father left me in the worst way possible. i'm a hopeless person who will never be close to anyone in a relationship. i'm a confused girl. i'm confused about life, love, and my religion. i don't know if i want to turn to God or my friends or my family. i can't turn to my family, they'll judge me. i can't turn to my friends, they'll tell all of my dark secrets. so i have to turn to God.

please, God, help me figure this out..